I'm so sorry, AbladeintheMedow It's really painful when this happens. Just know that you're not alone here. We'll listen to what you have to say. we care about you. Please feel free to vent as much as you want. Share and reach out to us if you want. We won't judge you. We all love you. Is there anything we can do to help you? Please let us know. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you