Not sure why, everything is slowly falling into place but the energy to get what I want is draining. Get a home, et a bank and paperwork for the loan, shopping for the house, a couch, still looking for a table, not having internet yet, more works to be done, fighting about work (part or full time?), waiting for disability renewal maybe? Living ALONE. And when with parents we often fight to the point I cant say a single letter, missing my pets and so on...

Tonight it all seems too much. I feel like cutting and I think im going to... had to let it out