I'm so sorry, Copia Don't worry. You won't be judged here. Do you see a therapist? Maybe that could help. You could learn new ways to help you deal with these fetishes. I'm so sorry, I know it's hard. I hope you'll feel better soon. Remember that there's nothing to be ashamed of, although I understand why you'd feel uncomfortable. Remember that we're here fo you. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you