It's been 15 years since I have tried to commit suicide. My mother refused to visit me in the hospital because she was embarrassed and said the nurses hate people who arent sick.
When I finally came out, I was relieved and didnt think I would be there again.

This time I'm 29. I have cried for 3 days straight. I have taken to much clonazepam and it hasn't touched the distress. My eyes are bruised and swollen from crying.

I cant pull myself out of it. I want to die. I have had enough and I cant feel any strength i need to pull through.

I dont know where to turn.. I dont wsnt to go the hospital. I dont know what to do now.