I can't sleep. My medication for insomnia used to near knock me out, and I would sleep peacefully for hours. I now wait until early dawn to sleep. I become restless and agitated at night. When I awaken in the mornings, I have about 5 seconds of peace before I remember who I am, my life, and my responsibilities. Then I wonder why the hell I'm still alive. I think of ending it. Anyway, I hate sleeping because I'm at peace for 7 hours then everything comes rushing back.