I'm so sorry you're struggling, TheLonelyChemist Please don't give up. Things can get better. You're kind, smart and you're a wonderful person. I'm sure you'll be able to achieve your dream. Try to hang on. You can do this! You're strong, I know that. I believe in you. Remember that we're here to support you. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this