So just had an appointment with my psychiatrist. She apologised about not taking my manic episode as seriously as she should. She has also said that she is unable to handle be, I'm too conplex. So she is going to speak to her clinical director to enquire about funding to get me inpatient care at a specialist hospital. I find it difficult to trust her as there have been a few things that she has not followed through with so it's hard to think I might actually get some help. She also said nothing about medication, but she knows I've stopped the antipsychotics so o guess I'll just try to continue until I hear from her.