I'm SO sorry. No wonder you feel the way you do!!! I would sick to my stomach and just outraged at both their behavior.

Hard to go through court when you have no support. You probably did the best thing for yourself at the time, exercising good self-care tactics. I think that was smart, given the trauma. I also understand wanting him in jail for it too.

I am glad you have a professional therapist. What does he/she suggest for you?