I'm so sorry, sadveiledbride Please don't be so hard on yourself. If you meds aren't working anymore, can you try to change them? I'd suggest to talk to your Pdoc about this and see how it goes from there. Hopefully he/she will be able to help you. I'm so sorry, I know it's hard. Sleep is very important and the lack of it can have seripus effects on our mood. Please don't give up. I hope you'll be able to find a solution. I'd suggest to talk to your doctor about this and see how it goes from there. Anything that could help you. I hope you'll be able to find the right meds combination for you. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you