In terms of your NOT having access to treatment, it may be a blessing in disguise. While therapy can be effective for many people, it is not always helpful for those of us with Complex PTSD. Retraumatization is a real risk and unfortunately modern-day therapists are not trained well enough in Complex PTSD as it still hasn't been widely accepted by the healthcare community. Apparently there are a variety of reasons why (including that including complex PTSD in the DSM would rid of nearly half of the diagnosis's, and thus cause severe issues for the Pharmaceutical companies).