They found an ovarian cyst, schmorl’s nodes on my spine multiple ones and bone on bone between two vertebrae, as well something with my right lung making it hard for me to breathe. All from the CT scan I am in terrible amount of pain all I wanna is drink and I have the money for it which obviously scares me.

My friend just texted me I need her but she wants to isolate. She doesn’t want me to take it personally then why why the fox sakes did she message me. I am not feeling well at all I need my friends more now then ever before. All this stuff scares me and the hospital is a gong show I talked with a doctor last night who said I was junkie and then a psychiatrist who asked me why I was here and what level of education I had. I spent all the morning in bed in pain finally I took a hydromorphine with gravol. I take them sparingly I am scared like I said but there is no one around to help me out because my friends want to be left alone.