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Originally Posted by TheLonelyChemist
Everything I have, including my limited group of friends, my now-defunct and useless knowledge of computer programming, is not earned by me at all and I am just a worthless person bragging about his non-existant abilities.
I haven't earned anything. I don't deserve to be happy. I Am just a fraud.
I am not House. I never will be.
If I had been fortunate enough to be healthy, I'd be studying computer engineering and would have left the world to its own fate. Now I cannot save myself neither the world. And you know what? I stopped thinking about the world relatively long ago. Now I just want a high income, secure job.
I haven't earned anything.
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I've been there and know exactly how you feel. I dropped my computer programming major and went into business. After writing my first basic program I knew it wasn't for me. Don't think you can't change career paths even if you got your degree in it. There's tons of people with a second major.
I've changed career types throughout my 20's. But nothing felt more fun than running a company. The classification of manic is "thinking" they can do anything. Well I don't just think but I get it done with the help of everyone below me.
To help cheer you up, I went from eating 10 cent packets of ramen soup, rice, and beans during college. All while living with a roommate in a cheap apartment. I drove a car I bought for $400 and It would back fired all the time. Driving in a residential neighborhood and seeing people hit the deck after the massive loud *** boom, made me laugh everytime. I now own my own house in San Diego, have 3 BMWs; 7 series, 3 series, and an i3. I'm working as the Chief Innovation Officer with my company now and one day I will he CEO. I've got my goals set and my 24/7 manic *** will most likely hit that goal.
I still struggle with being happy and constantly feel this overwhelming boredom with life in general. Sometimes for no reason at all. But no one is perfect right?