I knew its against ethics. I could say he crossed the line when I was inpatient and after few months we became lovers. Fact that it was against ethics didn't bother me though he was little bit paranoid. Thing that hurt me was that he was married and I was only a lover.
His wife found out he cheats on her and he decided to save his marriage and left me. But he still was my doc but we didn't have sessions, he simply continued prescribe medication for me and listened to me when I was so broken because he left me and then tried to stop me from killing myself.

I think I could never go inpatient again because it will remind me of us and make everything worse.
But I have very nice T now and I told her about it, its one of most discussed topics with her.