I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, here today I understand what you mean. I don't know if I would go as far as calling it an addiction, but I do think one may become too dependent on therapy and his/her life may feel empty as a result. A good therapist should avoid that, but it sounds like you haven't had very good experiences. I'm so sorry to hear that. I think it's important to discover what would you like to do with your life right now - what are your goals? Do you have any hobbies? What do you like to do in your free time? Perhaps you could start from there. I'm so sorry, I know it's hard. Please don't give up. I believe you will get stronger with time. It won't be easy and it will take time, but it can be done. Remember that things won't stay like this forever. They can and will get better! Try to hang on. You can do this! You're strong, I know that. I believe in you. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this