I'm not sure if hypnosis is necessary, Dnester. If you do not want hypnosis, I'd suggest to talk to your doctor about this and see how it goes from there. Hopefully he/she will be able to help you. Ask them if you can avoid hypnosis since you're against it. I'm so sorry, I know it's hard. Please don't give up. I hope you'll be able to get the help you need and deserve. You're a wonderful person and you deserve it. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this