I'm not going to be too mad at myself for this failure. Today was the first day I returned to reading poetry, so I probably wasn't prepared for the poetry's effect on my sexuality.

Also, I have to realize that goals aren't always easy to reach. And I'm doing this on my own. Nobody seems to understand or share this struggle. Considering all this, I might fail a few times. But I will rise up again even stronger and wiser than before.

Back when I was watching porn, I thought I'd never stop watching it. Now it's been a few years since I've watched porn. When I tell people that I don't watch porn, they don't believe me. But I achieved that goal of quitting porn. It was difficult and lonely, but I arose strong and I'm proud of that accomplishment.

This new goal, of not privately communicating or sexting women, will be tough and lonely too maybe; but I'm confident that I'll reach it, just like my other goal. So I shouldn't be too hard on myself when I relapse: I just have to accept that this will be difficult and that I might relapse a few times, but that I have to keep trying.