I'm so sorry, MaroonAbalone The only way to know for sure whether you're on the spectrum is to go to a doctor and get a proper diagnosis. That way you'll know for sure. I'd suggest to talk to your doctor about this and see how it goes from there. Hopefully he/she will be able to help you. I hope you'll be able to get the help you need and deserve. If your therapist suspects you may have autism as well, I'd say it's definitely worth looking into it. I hope you'll be able to get the answers you need. Autistm can be treated and dealt with. Many people who have been on the spectrum have lived a good life, after all. But you need to be aware of it first. I'm so sorry, I know it's hard. Please don't give up. I hope things will get better soon for you. Try to hang on. You can do this! You're strong, I know that. I believe in you. I hope you'll feel better soon. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you