I hope you'll be able to get the help you need, Dnester. I'm afraid I must agree with what all the others have already said better than i ever could. Please try to listen to what your treatment providers have to say. They're there to help you after. Remember that we're here to support you. We can only do that, though. Support you. We can't diagnose you and we can't treat you. I'm so sorry, I know it's hard. Please don't give up. I hope things will get better soon for you. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this