I can’t sleep , I tried to smoke pot to help and it does but it makes my anxiety worse and my depression worse as well. I’ve been through so much and I’m struggling with my Christian belief because of events in my life. I used to love going to work but now it feels more of a chore then work , I feel like I’ve been dragging and I used to be like this when a big relationship ended , it took two years to recover. Now everything is back and I think it has a lot to do with the death of my best friend my Nonny (grandmother). I feel like I’m having a mental break down and like the days are fading away. I’ve been through worse then this , I’m a rape survivor and it doesn’t haunt me anymore so why is it that this is haunting me.