I know I posted so many articles here, but I am changing every day. Every day I find something new about me..

I have anxiety, depression, dpdr and ADHD.

Everything except depression started when I was a kid. But it got significantly worse last year, September. I don't know who I am. I don't have any place where I feel fully confortable. I cant imagine myself as adult. I feel like I belong to psychiatry.

My amount of fears is twice the size than before. They are stronger. I became scared of germs and dirt. I am hypochondriac as well. I have intrusive thoughts that are when I get these thoughts, I feel like that's what I am really into but I swear I'm not! I don't like numbers like 3,5,9.. And I hate corners. I dreamed about I woke up shaking and I was all sweaty. Than through out the day, I could . I was so disgusted but I felt like I wanted to repeat it. Is this OCD? I hate myself this is so sick. Please help.