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Default Feb 24, 2019 at 06:15 AM
 
So hard to believe that is what happens. I was in that state for 2 days. I was on crisis lines, I was planning my suicide, I was throwing up.....I finally contacted him Wednesday night my email. He called me in the morning and got me an appointment that day. My mind believed he could not help and nothing could ever help me that all this was will never end, everything was hopeless. Not sure how but he managed to un-trigger me. Just so odd how him really addressing a the child part and us working together to bring her into the light helped. He even gave me one of those silicone support bracelets that Earth-Water-Air-Light on it and it glows in the dark. So stupid but that bracelet was like magic. He said when this starts to happen to feel the bracelet and bring that part here in the office in our minds. I felt a release in me happen. Much lighter. When I left there I was shivering and could not get warm. I had the car heat cranking. That night I slept like a rock. The next day I felt like I went through a battle but I was clear. I was able to get things done. No stupid need to kill myself, no flooding of excessive negative thoughts or worries. It is so weird and dangerous for me. He tried to explain that for PTSD there are implicit and explicit memories. Combat PTSD are manly explicit but for those with trauma at a young age they are mostly implicit.

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When a child’s emotional needs are not met and a child is repeatedly hurt and abused, this deeply and profoundly affects the child’s development. Wanting those unmet childhood needs in adulthood. Looking for safety, protection, being cherished and loved can often be normal unmet needs in childhood, and the survivor searches for these in other adults. This can be where survivors search for mother and father figures. Transference issues in counseling can occur and this is normal for childhood abuse survivors.
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