yes thats how i write because i am so scared of living i need drugs and i cant get them
i need blades but i cant get them i need drink but i cant get them
my life is unmanageable i fear everything i dont want to be scared all the time i dont know how to live without fear
I go to AA/ NA / CA I NEED TO SORT MY LIFE OUT but am even scared of that i live in fear 24/7 fear that i'll like myself because i think i shoulnt be loved my crime the big problem with me is i lie white lies and for some reason am going to hell for it i cant stop theses fears at all Sorry for my post before ... fear is big part of why i have never done thing am 42 and the only thing i have done is marry my husband never been out the uk too scared to go on a plane too scared to live