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Originally Posted by growlycat
Abuse yes sexual a big gray question mark. I’ll never really know for sure
With my t in CA I didn’t mind the attraction to him. It was a pleasant warm
Buzz but I didn’t desire it to come to fruition.
I feel like I really know my latest t. I still only see him at his best so I’m realistic about that. It just doesn’t seem fair that I’d hit it off so well with someone I will never have a chance with. That it won’t go anywhere frustrates me.
I still come to pc but my t has been criticized here yet has never done anything I think is inappropriate. Others disagree. Our therapy is unorthodox but still has boundaries.
Even if he were a rigid t I think might have happened anyways. I don’t know how to appreciate what I have and not long for more
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The feelings of Envy. I get you. Unrequited love.
I think of that with my T too. I'm happy he has everything but I feel envious. Had everything going for me and screwed it all up, well I had trauma and depression so forgive myself...but feel opportunities have passed in a bad way.
It might help you get where you want to be though? It's not too late to get what you want. Maybe working through this could get you closer to where you want to be?