Vraylar, I'm not sure I had a reaction to. I had started a new job, and it was really important to me, at the time. Looking back I realized it was the OCD that made it really important. And, then, I had gotten very manic, which never happens. I'm usually a depressive. Also, things at home weren't that great, and I started getting panic attacks at work. I was also very socially awkward at this job. There was a guy I liked and I didn't know how to act around him and it was kind of a clique-y job, where everyone stayed in their circles, and I wanted to move out of my circle, because it was a library job, and eventually I wanted to move up in the library district. So, I think that made me fluctuate from Bipolar 2 to Bipolar 1, which my doctor says happens. My new doctor. I had to find a new doctor anyway, because my old one stopped taking my insurance. I didn't even say it fluctuated. My new doctor rediagnosed me as Bipolar I. I couldn't sleep the night before I saw him for the first time, anyway, because I had already been suffering from insomnia, which I kind of still do. The Seroquel helps, but I still wake up at 1am and 4am (how random). It is currently 4:30am here. He put me on Vraylar the first time I saw him. He said it'd give you an "ants in your pants" feeling. But, then, the next two nights I couldn't sleep either, so I went back in his office and demanded a stronger anti-anxiety med than hydroxyzine, because my old psych hadn't trusted me with anything stronger (even though I was a grown up and I had told him repeatedly for years it didn't work), so the new psych put me on Klonopin, and sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. But, I definitely follow the *as needed* instructions. So, I definitely think it's the Vraylar, plus my own actions that helped.

You might be right that it's the withdrawal from the Vraylar, because he just straight up put me on Seroquel. Same thing happened with Latuda. I was originally at that office before, seeing a NP for a second opinion and she put me on Latuda, 20 mg, again the lowest dose, and I had these weird emotional side effects. I was crying. I lashed out.

I was telling the above poster it could be due to the fact that I had been on the *same* medication, with my old psych, for four years.

But the Vraylar was making me feel better, even after I lost my job, which was around the same time I got prescribed Vraylar and Klonopin.

Then, I got a new job in January and I was really happy because it was much better my style, my boss was more understanding of my mental illnesses. My other boss had never supervised before, to say nothing of the fact of supervised someone with a mental illness. Brush up on your ADA, man!

However, I guess I was probably going through a low, recently, a week ago, and I had just gotten diagnosed with BPD and I was OBSESSING over all the stupid stuff I had done throughout my life that screamed BPD, and that probably triggered all these symptoms I told my doctor about like the tremors (which had actually gone away with Vraylar, but now have gotten worse) and the thoughts of you-know-what, which I'm not, it's just, you know how sometimes you want a way out of the pain, but you still want to live? I don't know. He said those thoughts were the BPD. But, I looked it up. I have an MPH, so I didn't like WebMD it. I went and researched Academic articles and official sites, and I found out that therapy is better use for BPD than medicine and Seroquel is actually a Bipolar med. Duh! Replacing Vraylar, a Bipolar med, with Seroquel, it only makes sense.

So, why would he replace a Bipolar med with BPD symptoms?

But, Seroquel is just really...hard. And I tried to get a hold of my pharmacist yesterday...but you know pharmacies, they just keep re-routing you.

And the damn medical assistant hasn't called me back.