I'm ready... ready to go crazy, to go bonkers, to go insane. I don't want to see (another) therapist. I don't want to be on Psych med's (again.) I've been dealing with my issues for so many years (since I was too young to remember) I'm just tired of it all. I'm tired of fishing. I'm ready to cut bait.

I know I can't intentionally try to go off the rails. I'm still married (my wife's accomplishment, not mine.) And although I don't have to work to earn a living anymore, there are still things I have to do every day in order to help keep the household running. But if I could just slip quietly into insanity, I wouldn't mind... and I wouldn't fight it. That's all I have to say...