Skeezyx, I like having you around too. I've liked you from the beginning of my joining this forum.
But it doesn't seem as if you have much of a relationship with your wife. You often say your marriage has lasted because of her efforts, not yours, as if it really doesn't matter to you.
And you often talk about how life doesn't seem worth living. Why? What is the matter? Do you not have any interests? Any real love for your wife?
I don't mean this in a judgmental way. I just wonder....