I am having so much trouble being motivated. I have to get so far ahead in my classes because they're going to pile on a huge amount of work the same week that I'm busiest this semester.

I'm just so burned out. I don't really find joy in much of this. I find joy mostly in belonging and well, getting my basic needs met.

It looks like one of the only ways I can "belong" to people is to just be used. How does anyone ever make a mutually beneficial friendship/relationship anyway?