Why is this so conplicated?? I want to contact you and tell you I cant do this. It is to much. When I would tell T that I couldnt do it any more that the fight was to much we would discuss it. I would feel the connection and would be in a better space. Now I am on my own and dont deel comfortable reaching out to you. All these emotions suck. Not sure why they are so necessary. I really want to numb.out all feelings. I want to call it quits but I cant quit anything, especially when it comes to people. A part of me wishes you would quit on me.