That's great!

Baby T uses CBT, we've only done a little but it seems helpful so far. I like how he takes one step each session and has me dissect things, then I get homework and we go from there.

Journalling is good and I need to get back into it myself. I haven't much since T left. He used to always ask me "Is it still important NOW" because even though it was in the moment, days later it may not have been. It annoyed me at first but I started to see how it was important because we only spent time on the important things.....

Just keep reminding yourself current T is NOT Ex T or Ex MC... he's different and he keeps proving that. I feel like you are quite close with him already, it comes off that way, so maybe that's why it scares you, you wait for the other shoe to drop... and maybe it will? No one knows the future but that's why living for right now, with your T is the best. Just enjoy what you have with him today.