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I can relate SOOOOO much to that, especially AFTER T has left, I am 100% doubting the care ever existed and it's ruining me. I allowed myself to get close to him after expressing similar views and having our rupture, we were the closest ever, after the rupture....I was confident and content with us, I accepted his care and I figured, whatever he sees about me, it's good for both of us, I need to not question it.... but then he left and blah.

Not to try and scare you, you likely wont experience what I did. It's not common T's abandon clients, esp for a whole new career, but ya life happens and no one knows the future but thats why if you can get to a point where you just accept it, it will be great. Even if you realize it's only temporary... but it doesn't mean it isn't real and it doesn't mean that everyone else's care is only temporary. Good luck to you! We both have sessions tomorrow