Good luck with the Lithium, luvyrself! I hope it works out for you. Some docs are determined to get patients to therapeutic levels, but I know a couple of people who benefit from lower doses. That's something to keep in mind.

I'm sorry you had such panic from two antipsychotics. I've never heard of that with them. You might want to keep a future option open to others, though. I've had a real variety of experiences even within the same medication categories. And how one person reacts is different than another. It's the truth. Without antipsychotics, I would likely have been hospitalized many more times than I have.