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Default Mar 05, 2019 at 02:02 PM
 
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Originally Posted by -Astral- View Post
my husband is my carer he bought me a treadmill in hope to get fit
the plan was me doing that in one room and my husband playing his bloody games( 18 +) because i get triggered a lot the idea was for me to use it while he was doing its all build in the other room
went on it the first time 15 minutes yesterday went on today for 10 minutes
when my husband isnt in the room with i feel panicy and triggered i cant be alone
am meant to be getting a support worker to help me go out my husband is with me 24 7 but i cant even stand being on my own i have just wasted a load of money because i cant be on my own my husband needs to be with me all the time i feel like a child
I feel bad because you feel like this.I am going to tell you something I live alone in elderly housing there are times I cant stand to be alone especially at night.Actually it scares me to be alone sometimes.I have a good friend who can come and sit with me after she works and once she leaves I feel so alone and I hate it.Funny use to be I wanted to be alone not now.I cannot speak to many people around here because all they do is gossip and report every little thing you do.Sometimes I fee like I cannot even breathe without someone complaining around her.I thought I had a friend turns out she was jsut using me.Lonliness stinks,i lost my husband almost 15 years ago and I still find it hard to be alone.Somedays when I am alone I get so depressed and I just break down and cry.If u ever need some one to talk to I am here.
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