I just dont know why when I am anxious or just plain worried I start to cry .My anxieties develop into depression,If I do worry then I cry too.I dont like it .I get mad and sometimes I start to yell my shrink doesnt get why the meds arent working.I know why because when I had my server fall way back when I hit my head and had a very bad head injury which by the way has messed me up bigtime.Sorry but I have had suicidal thoughts now bear in mind they are only thoughts and I have no intention of doing away with myself .I am just a deep depression right now.All my shrink does is increase my meds this time he did nothing.I keep telling him I dont think there is any kind of medication out there which will help my anger .All I feel like doing is crying.It just comes out so easily I feel like my illness is some kind of punishment.What did I ever do wrong to deserve this.?I feel like this is all my fault.I never asked for this.All I want is to be normal like everyone else.Why cant I just go anywhere without feeling like my anxieties are bad? This illness stinks