Since my goal is to own. I think my real desire is to be independent. Yes I still want to own. For financial security. And will use living in subsidized to determine if I can live on my own. It will also adapt me to living away from mom.

Mom thinks I'm making a mistake. Which does have me consider her thoughts. But I don't feel that way. I feel like this the path God wants me on. There were delays but things are progressing. They want me moving in end of the month. It's a year lease. By than I will qualify to buy, have mom and brother paid off. Be in a better place financially. She thinks I should live here and do that.

I'm making strides. I guess I should start packing. My stuff is in nooks and crannies around the house. I'm just not ready for the backlash from mom. I know once I move out there is no going back. Next stop a group home if living alone doesn't work for me. That is part of what mom is worried about.