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Default Mar 06, 2019 at 07:26 PM
 
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Originally Posted by tecomsin View Post
Good on you for reaching out to your pdoc with the truth about compliance and your reasons for not taking your meds. Unfortunately it is very common for people to stop being med compliant, and some of us know the havoc that can wreck people's lives as a result. I also feel my meds are unhealthy and stop believing I need them sometimes but I think after my last catastrophic episode I am not going to do that again.
Thank you! I have said many, many times that I have learned my lesson and will never stop them again but I can’t seem to get that through to my brain when it’s time to take them. I did take my Latuda tonight in front of my husband (it has to be taken with food) so hopefully tonight will go just as well but my head is just saying that these drugs are hurting more than helping. It just doesn’t make sense right now that I have a mental illness. It all feels spiritual. And, I’m just struggling. But, I will do my best to at least continue being honest.

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