I know this is part of erotic transference for some clients, I occasionally think about former therapists and that they likely have masturbated in their life. Itīs not that I would want to be close to them in that way but I can sometimes find it "exctiting" to think about. Not randomly like on the bus but when on my own and thereīs a romantic scene in some movie or similar.
Perhaps it makes me feel theyīre human and more than just a therapist in their office. As an example I know one of my former therapist is living on her own, as she also did several years ago, and itīs likely she has those needs from time to time.
I let my thoughts go there sometimes as I know feeling ashamed wonīt make them go away.
Has anyone else experienced this?