I know this is part of erotic transference for some clients, I occasionally think about former therapists and that they likely have masturbated in their life. It´s not that I would want to be close to them in that way but I can sometimes find it "exctiting" to think about. Not randomly like on the bus but when on my own and there´s a romantic scene in some movie or similar.


Perhaps it makes me feel they´re human and more than just a therapist in their office. As an example I know one of my former therapist is living on her own, as she also did several years ago, and it´s likely she has those needs from time to time.


I let my thoughts go there sometimes as I know feeling ashamed won´t make them go away.


Has anyone else experienced this?