I feel a little better today. Thank you for your replies. If it wasn’t for this particular relationship I’d wonder sometimes if I even have BPD.

I hate that I even wrote I hate him. I don’t obviously but he pushes my buttons and I go to that extreme which I know is BPD. I feel like I have managed to overcome so much. I wa depressed for like 20 years, did DBT, had my first child and though I have my moments I have gotten through things. The postpartum time after my twins has been very hard but I really have been doing well considering. I guess it’s that typical BPD thing...I feel like he doesn’t love me. When we fight it feels like the end of the world and I find I go towards anger. It’s not destructive though and I know I’d never harm anyone but it feels horrible and I need help dealing with it. Couples fight...why does it destroy me?