The remedy to my toxic relationship is to end it. This means being alone. I have never done this before in my life. I am in my 50’s and not ok in so many areas; physically, emotionally (many reasons why perhaps?). I’m truly terrified.

I can’t even pinpoint what it is that terrifies me so.

The worst is I will not have the strength and resilience to survive (my own depression). But, I have shown that strength already while suffering through the hell I’ve been living. Hmmmm