I absolutely hate these words. It is what you are left with in this life. I am supposed to be happy and grateful i made it to this point.

I am sorry but look around there are so many "higher levels of functioning" i know dont compare myself to anyone doing better than me just look around and see how much better i am than a homeless person (per DBT philosophy) find a person who self harms is in the hospital constantly etc etc etc. UGH UGH

Just venting UGH. One of my alone nights.