I used to be so good at school. But in college I just had a hard time getting into the grove of things.

I go to a very prestigious university where everyone around me seems to have their crap together and somehow enjoy the meticulous study routine. But I’m finding that I don’t fit in with these people. It’s been 3 years at this school and I don’t really have any friends that go there. I don’t fit in. I hate the classes. I find everything to be boring or a waste of my time. And now I don’t even like my major.

Some days I wish I had just gone to community college or even a state school. It would have at least been easier. I also wish that I would have chosen a different major. Mine is a complete bore and I don’t even want to pursue this career path any longer.

Yet all of these issues probably won’t matter in a week or so. I slacked off so much this quarter, I didn’t even turn in one of my midterms. I haven’t been to class in a long while. I’m very certain I will fail all of these classes. Which will either mean I will be kicked out of the college (the most likely option) or if I do get to stay i will have no chance at graduating on time.

Honestly I would just drop out right now if it wouldn’t make my parents hate me. They co-signed my student loans so if I drop out I have to start paying them back ASAP. And I can’t really do that right now, I don’t make enough. And they’d have to help me out. Itd be rough. Not to mention they’d seen me as a failure. They’re the type of parents that pushed me to do the IB program in highschool and pushed for the great university and made me feel like I had to become some perfect person.

Anyone else gone through this type of thing? How did you handle it? If you have been kicked out of college what happened? How did your parents take it?