What were some of the things that led you to the diagnosis of BPD? I've been diagnosed with depression and anxiety, but I think there's something else going on with me. I feel like I need my life to be f***ed up. I'm either depressed or in the throes of substance abuse, or eating disorders. I get acutely suicidal at times, though I've never attempted anything. Should I be asking for more testing from my therapist to see if I might have some sort of BPD, or am I just stuck in this need to be messed up? I'm so confused.