Went to work this morning. Woke up stressing out so I figured work would be better than being alone. I also booked an appt with my gp for thursday. I dont think anyone can help me but i promised i would see her if i wasnt seeing my t which im not and she told me she would get me in if i needed even if there were no openings(she is booked for about a month she isnt in the office until thursday though) Plus i like her a lot so i like to get time to talk to her even if i dont think it will help.

After work stopped and grabbed another bottle since I ran out last night.

Got kicked out of chat. Well not technically but the mod told me i csnt be on there drunk. Which im not really but i have been drinking since i got off.work.

Feeling pretty bad now. My only "friend" stopped talking to me again after she found out i was drinking again. Not sure if i can deal with this anymore.

If people dont like me if i am not doing good then why bother at all. Rather not have anyone i think.