I'm in the process of getting back on them. I keep trying to beat it on my own, and falling on my face. I have to admit to myself whether I like or not, I have a mental illness, and accept that fact. I do good for 3-6 months then boom back to square one. It's not worth it living like this. I just want to get up every day go to work make an honest living and live my life. I realized my mistake is thinking I know more than the doctors. They are doctors for a reason.