You sound very depressed. It's normal to not want to tell our parents everything that is going on. You are at an age where you are trying to gain independence. Aren't you also seeing a psychiatrist? I know you tried Depakote but have you told the psychiatrist how deep your depression is? A lot of times, they have to try many medications before finding what works.

If you were not as depressed, I think it would be easier for you to take the chances you need to take. Like asking a girl out on a date. It is harder to be outgoing when we are depressed. Social skills take practice. From my POV, your social skills on line are great. There are many girls your age longing to be asked out on a date. Been there. You would be a great partner from my POV. Please ask for help. I actually recommend starting with your psychiatrist or therapist--as a parent, sometimes I get so emotional about what my kids are going through that I am of no help.....