We all want you here, rose1985! I appreciate the kind, supportive posts you've written here. Please keep posting if you want to. We all care about you here. We all love you here. Feel free to vent here as much as you want. We won't judge you here. I promise you that. You're a kind sould and a wonderful person. Keep posting and keep fighting! It's not your fault if you're feeling like this. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you, rose1985. You're a strong, wonderful person