I told my pdoc yesterday I was fine because in that second I just wanted out but right now I want help. I'm so restless from the akathisia I want to self harm again some more. I am thinking of overdosing on my meds too today, but I don't want to go to the hospital because I'll be fine in an hour or tomorrow and I don't think sitting in the emergency room hall for a few days will help. Literally 30 minutes ago I was laughing about suicide and now I can't stop crying.
What do I do? I'm planning on going to group later (not sure if that will help at all)., that's in about 4 hours. I took a Benadryl as suggested in another thread here but this feeling just won't stop.