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Originally Posted by MickeyCheeky
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I dont know why but I feel like it is my fault she died.Does that make any sense to you?She was 91 see ever since my dad died almost three years ago she has wanted to die.She kept asking everyone to have God take her .I for one couldnt do that.You dont pray for someone to take a life.She was very religious .She would say her rosaries all day just about.Even though she believed in God she never preached to anyone.I have talked to my doctor but he doesnt say much.He understands how I feel other then that I dont know maybe he doesnt know what to say.JUst a little over a year and a half agoI lost my cousin who I was very close to when I was younger.She was 63.Was in a coma and never woke up.So in three years I lost my dad,mom and cousin. I am afraid to die.Always afraid I wont be dead when they go and cremate me.I have heard of cases where people have actually sat up in there coffins they were not dead. Well my mom didnt talk to me for about two weeks before she died.I remember talking to her home aid.She tried to get my mother to eat but she said no.I felt a little bit bad because she wouldnt talk to me however I know that she didnt want to talk to anyone,said nothing when my kids were there.She even cried over the phone to me that she wanted to die and would asks me how come GOd wouldnt take her.I just told her he wasnt ready for her yet.I did actually yell at her one time because all I would ever hear when I talked to her is I wish God would take me my kids would hear it to and they got mad.Cant say I blame them when you have to hear that every single day.
I am giving you a hug my friend cause you are always so caring.I love you.always,Carol