I'm the same as you. I did 2 years of therapy, I stopped going last year. During those 2 years I got even worse, going to therapy made me self conscious about myself, it made me think about it 24/7, and it also kinda made me think "I'm not sick enough" and I would make myself worse on purpose. Right now I'm not seeing any therapist, but I feel that I'm even worse than when it al started.