I should add that I feel quite conflicted about whether or not to go off work. When I'm here, I'm sometimes ok and other times I think about how easy it would be to go to the top floor of the parkade and jump at 3am. No one would even be around to stop me. Or how easy it would be to walk into an airplane with the props going. I'd be gone in a second. So essentially, I don't feel safe at work. But I don't feel like this ALL the time, just a lot of the time.